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Good evening to you all. My name is Edward Clark. I have come to speak to you tonight because I have a message for you, a message which unfortunately was due to my imperfections of my own life within this world in which you live.

 I don't really know what to say. It is difficult to express the values which in my lifetime were so important to me, yet they probably are so very unimportant to you. To tell the truth I shall endeavour to explain exactly where I am coming from. My name is Edward Clark and I was born to a very privileged family, and this is really what I want to talk to you about.

Being who you are born to, to a large degree, is due to luck. Luck in a sense that you are given opportunities which other people don't have, and it's how you take those opportunities which determine how you evolve as a person. Unfortunately, I  was not of the very spiritual nature, shall we say. I was well educated but unfortunately I was very much a product of my time, and that in my youth my main goal was to secure as much finance as I possibly could to insure that I was as rich and powerful as I could possibly be. To that end that was my whole focus on life and that was detrimental. Detrimental to not only to myself, but to many other people all around me.

 That is my one great regret - that I never truly knew how to love. It is only since I have been here that I understand the concept of love. To me it was an emotional weakness; that we do not give up our emotional understandings or feelings to those around us, for it was felt we would be seen to be impotent. We would not be able to cope with the aspects of the world in which we live. I do regret that. I regretted in my personal relationships, for indeed I was married, but it was in truth a loveless marriage. It was a marriage of convenience. We married because there was a financial gain to be achieved by joining two families together. Then the aspect of the physical connection was not  my idea at all. I had no understanding of the pastoral relationships between a man and a woman. I do regret that, and I caused a great deal of pain and upset to those who should have been close to me. That's not to say that in my moments of shall we say lust of amorous of male dominance that I did not feel something, but in truth it was more for the art of procreation that I was interested in, to maintain our

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 family line, and I regret that so much, for even by procreating, by bringing into this world children to replicate myself once again, I did not understand my relationship with those who were close to me.

There was no bond between my sons and my daughters. They did not know me at all, did not know me within this life. It was as though I was a stranger to them. It was not until I passed into this great world of Love and Light that I truly understood that which I had lost. You may say why did I live such a life? There was a reason for it, a reason that at the time I did not even contemplate. It was not it a concern, for my main concern was the riches which I was able to procure. For the many houses, the many businesses, the many objects of art, and the ability to influence the world in which I lived. This was my true focus, and in truth I did make a difference to my world, but that, in truth, was only conveyed by my intellect. It was my intellect that I focused more fully on, and gave away in, a sense, my Soul. That essence which is love, which is the true being of who I really am, was pushed to the back.

I did not even understand it. I played lip service to the church, the Almighty God, who I on occasion would worship within these halls, but in truth ignored it most of the time. I was self-satisfied I believed I had achieved all that had been set before me. That through my endeavours and my personage within the world, I achieved everything that was required within life. Yet I could not guarantee that I would live forever, for like everyone else I passed from your world into the world of spirit. But my world was so much different to that you will expect, for I passed into a world of darkness, where there was no light, and there were phantoms, where there was greed and amorous. Where there were people who I understood, and in that moment of realisation I understood who I had become, and that in truth I had lost my way, but it is the great Love which sustains us all, for we are not condemned through actions within one lifetime but rather we are brought into a state of awareness where we understand more fully our weaknesses, and indeed our strengths through the experiences within the life plane.

 I was able and indeed willing to accept a philosophy which gave me redemption, for I truly believed that through the repenting of my sins that I would be saved. In truth I was saved, for I was not banned to the world of darkness, but I was given guidance from those who seek to help those people like me who had lost the way within the material world. Understand that your life is made up of many possibilities. It is how we see the reality of our world and those things which we make to be important that influence us. You must be careful in your thoughts; be careful in those things, those people, those experiences which you see to be most important, but in truth are only figments of our ego mind.

It is through the Love and the Light of Spirit that truly we find our own destiny. I have found myself. Now I am happy. Those who I have loved I have reconciled myself with, for they did not condemn me, for they knew me, and they love me, although I did not respond. But we are all given another chance. I will return one day to the Earth plane. I will once again experience the wonder of growth of the personal interaction between a man and a woman. I will truly understand what it is to love, for I did not.

Remember - you must always love! I leave you.